OK If I keep doing this it is officially Lisa's fault

Mostly for the positive reinforcemnet- I blog once over a year ago and I get two comments- boy I can tell already that would be really addicting. So I figure what the heck I'll try it again no one will read it. But I let Lisa know that she helped me refind it mostly so I can stop signing her blog anonymous. OK ok I'll admit I wanted her to encourage me and Lisa is one of my favorite cheerleaders. Not only does she comment but then she puts a link to my blog on her page. Oh the pressure.

If I am going to keep doing this though I'll have to figure out a way to change the name since my hope is we will have a healthy baby boy in November that will then make 4- hard to believe.

OK I am slowly readjusting to work I guess. New jobs are always hard and I am having a harder time then usual probably because my husband is gone all week long, I miss my daughter whom I got to spend a glorious month with, My aunt is now watching her in the afternoon which makes me happy but used to make me jealous - that is already better because my little munchin sweetly obliged with a clingy I love mommy phase. These little ones can be a blessing at times. And finally I think it is worse becasue I am pregnant and being pregnant just naturally pulls you more to the family end of the whole work/career/family balance beam that all working moms "play" on every day. Hell most moms whether you are working or not probably have days they play on this balance beam - should I go back to work, when, ever? Or maybe they are people out there that are just a lot more satisfied then I am and don't question their choices so much.

Well anyway today I finally got something to the people I work with. Two paper ideas that in general I was pretty pleased with. I should have done it way quicker but I am far from 100% at this job yet. Anyway both colleagues (I think I have to stop calling them my bosses since I am on the same level as them- Jr and they are Sr. but supposedly I think they are not my bosses- but it is weird after being a student for so ong) seemed impressed and happy with it. Now I just need to make myself do something else productive this afternoon. But scoring some praise and good will at work has certainly made it a bit easier today. Though I still find myself thinking, wonder where I can find cute crib bedding, should baby boy sleep here or there, when should we move my little girl to a toddler bed.

As for my husband he comes home tomorrow and will no longer be living away during the week. His next clinical rotation won't be much better with the hours and stuff but franky I will be glad to have him home. Honestly I feel disconnected from him. He has been away for 4 weeks comming home for weekends. But two weekends ago Lil K was sick, really sick, I have to go to the hospital sick. And then last weekend he was sick though he didn't bother to tell me so he just acted like an ass most of the weekend making me honestly not all that unhappy to see him go. He isn't a great phone person and I don't think he much listens to me when he does call me on the phone so we had a less then pleasant conversation last night. Becaus I was tired and overly hormonal and didn't feel like sitting and talking to myself on the phone. Though I think I got his attention since he left me a sweet message at work before I got in wishing me well on my day.

OK Lisa - here is another post- you got me to do it. I figure I might have 2 more tops that I wite before I am firmly addicted to blogs as I am addicted to the message board. Thanks for caring what little old me has to say.