Why Owen is great

There are lots of reasons but currently I just can't beleive how much he rewards me for letting go. Nursing has not been the easiest for me. But around 3 months or maybe 4 months it all turned around. It was easier after the frist 6 weeks but the obsessing didn't stop until about 4 months when I decided to wean him. I figured I made it long enough, pumping at work was a bear so lets be done with it. But I was torn. I dropped both pumping session and then tried to drop the night and morning feeding he got with me and he wanted nothing to do with it. so I said fuck it - let him nurse and if I lose my supply well that is what I wanted anyway.

This started the best time we ever had nursing together and it truly has been wonderful and all the things women who like breastfeeding yammer on about. I won't bore you with it because honestly it isn't for everyone so do what you want.

So I never thought we would make it this long and I had planned an 10 year anniversary trip away with my husband. It never occurred to me in a million years he would still be nursing. So I started to think - should I wean him, should I pump when I'm away- I don't want to pump and then after a week he refuses to nurse. Pumping milk for your baby with a breast pump and romantic just don't go together. I started to worry and obsess again- I planned on weaning him after the 10th and just said Fuck it again. Owen will do what he needs to and if I need to pump when I'm away so be it. I'll adjust.

Well right after we got back from our trip on the 12 - all weekend long he nursed so much I thought he'll never be done with this and I was OK with that. But anyway since Monday he has had very little interest in nursing. None yesterday, once today and slowly I see myself being done with this and maybe in time for this trip that is a week and half away.

Who'd have thought that he would know just what to do and I wouldn't need to plan it out. Crazy little boy.